I grew up witnessing my mom, grandma and other women in my family fall victims to depression, anxiety and panic. At 18, around the time I graduated high school and started college and began working full-time, I had my first series of panic and anxiety attacks which led me into a severe depression. My parents sent me to a therapist who said he could not help me and sent me to a psychologist who prescribed me antidepressants and anxiety medications. I didn't feel right taking medication at such a young age for a problem that was so new to me but I tried them anyways and ended up only feeling that much worse. The medication did not help me at all. I became a zombie who no longer wanted to work, go to school, speak to friends, take care of myself, so I quickly stopped the medication and began doing research. I couldn't believe how easily these medications are prescribed to people young and old. There really were limited options for any type of support or therapy to get somebody like me through this type of issue. I relied heavily on reading and began to learn about meditation, control of the mind and the awareness of the present moment and while it didn't heal me completely, it began helping.
I didn't yet know about the benefits of marijuana and how much it would help heal me. At 21 I began smoking regularly and haven't had a lasting panic episode since. I perform more positively and efficiently with medical marijuana. 🌱 I knew at a young age that I would forever have marijuana to thank for helping me with my severe anxiety and depression but I never knew the tremendous amount of support and healing it would provide me as a mother. I got pregnant with my son in 2014 and lost almost 15 pounds in the first trimester because of morning sickness and no appetite. Again, doctor was quick to prescribe me Zofran for minor morning sickness and I just couldn't wrap my head around it after reading about the dangerous side effects it has for the unborn baby. I did tons of research and soon realized that it would be a much safer and healthier option for myself and my baby if I smoked or took edibles . I took on a lot of criticism and guilt from family and friends because of my decision. As a young first-time mom I let the guilt set in and I stopped smoking because of what everyone else i was saying. It made me feel as if I was being a bad parent or doing something wrong. I didn't smoke the rest of my pregnancy with my son and also refrained from smoking while breastfeedin.I dealt with heavy postpartum depression and because of that I was not able to breastfeed my son past 3 months.
Im sure I could have nursed longer had I been medicating and healing. I got pregnant with my second child in 2016 and as most second time mommy's know, the 2nd time around, you realize that whoever isn't parenting your kids really should keep their opinions to themselves and what's important. You realize that you know what's best for your kids and you begin to care much less what anyone thinks especially when they are not the ones parenting your child. Once the morning sickness kicked in with my second pregnancy and my doctor tried to prescribe me Zofran again I went straight back to smoking I smoked my whole pregnancy with my daughter and I'm still smoking to this day almost 6 months postpartum. I I can now compare two different breastfeeding Journeys and two different pregnancies with and without the medical benefits of weed and the difference is astonishing. My pregnancy with my daughter was so much more peaceful with the help of weed and not giving a f*** what anyone else felt or thought about my responsible decisions for myself and my family. I can't say that I've been dealing with much postpartum depression after my daughter because of the help of medical marijuana. The first time around there was so much fear and guilt instilled in me in regards to smoking while pregnant and breastfeeding but I realize that my best tool to get me to where I am now was doing my own research and listening to my own instincts.I now can smoke free and proud. Smoking helps me to be in the present moment with my children at all times.
I can breastfeed my daughter with a calm quiet mind and leave any stresses or worries at the door so that I don't transfer any of that energy to her. if I smoke before playing with my toddler I am so much more creative, outgoing and interactive with him. When we play he absolutely loves when we get creative, improvise and use our imagination. I never understood how powerful the transfer of energy was between a mother and her children until I had two of my own and thanks to marijuana the energy that my children get from me when interact with them is nothing but positivity and peace and that's what our future Generations deserve, to pick up on and receive only our Positive Vibes not our pain or stress or fears. Marijuana is a female plant with female energy and with the world in the turmoil that it is at the moment, it is in need of that nourishing unconditional female energy more than ever. Our mothers need to be at peace with a calm open vibrant creative state of mind so that we may raise future generations who are aware, happy, peaceful and conscious. I would have never come to this realization if it wasn't for pharmaceuticals failing me, discovering the amazing benefits of medical marijuana and becoming a mother. I hope to spread awareness and unconditional support for other moms that are looking for options, support and healing, NOT pharmaceutical drugs. Chris #BOOBELIFE
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